Like what Stacey said before, the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.
I guess it sort of applies here too.
I gave up.
[ See, Stacey, told you I was pathetic. Am trying very hard to look down my nose at myself as well. ]
But now, I have him back.
And all is right with my world.

P/S: If I sound like a bimbo, I'm entitled.  ¶ 1:06:00 am

  I really don't understand why you never know what to say.
Do you really not know what to say?
Or do you have nothing to say?

Why do you not have anything else to tell me, other than asking me whether have I studied?
I hate that question.

Do you know what it feels like to miss someone? So much that you end up having to sleep on a wet pillow and wake up with your eyes feeling like you forgot to remove your contacts before you went to bed?
No, I guess not.

I thought maybe I could see you more. It being the holidays and stuff, even if we have to STUDY. But you're busy, I can try to understand. I miss you. But it doesn't really matter anymore, does it? Because so long as I STUDY, nothing else does, right?

I thought maybe you'd try to call back. But I switched off my phone, so I'll never know. I didn't see you try either. I don't see any messages coming in. The caller-id at home didn't show anything too. I've given up waiting.

I thought maybe you'd become less passive, seeing that you called on wednesday night and made me feel loved. But you killed that joy on thursday, when I called you, and felt that change in your voice when I told you that I was out and didn't STUDY that particular day.

It hurts.
Or maybe I'm just too possesive, picky, fussy and bad-tempered.  ¶ 10:23:00 pm

  hellloooooooo :)
guess who?!
i just want to say that wing is the sun in my my sky.
the red in my rose.
hahaha i love that little girrl.
we're going out on THURSDAYY.
so all you people can wait at the back of the queue for a date with herr.
haha ypupppers.
take care babyy.
see you soon.

staceyysuu x  ¶ 11:34:00 pm

  went out with stacey su today.
first time in gazillion years.
coffee for lunch. hahaha.
major bitching session about everything and everybody.
i love that woman.
and we both have a tragus piercing on our left!!!

i love you too sarah ho.
even though you'll never ever see this.
haha. but who cares anyway.
we should really get down to studying.
and not study for half an hour then bum around for the rest of the afternoon.
i thank you for trying to to make me mug anyway.

have been pissed off for three days and counting.
i'm going to kill shaun.
and only stacey su knows why.
hahaha.
i'm going crazy.
homocidal lesbian maniac. okay, maybe minus the lesbian part.  ¶ 11:54:00 pm