not-so-happy anniversary.
sometimes i wonder why i even bother.

got home at 1625 today. earliest i've ever been this year.
  ¶ 4:42:00 pm

 

went shopping with my mudder today.

new bra.

new pan-ties.

new tee.

new jeans.

new keyboard!

now all I need are new shoes and new specs.

and the current man-in-my-life to stop asking me to edit my blog because of him.

tomorrow!

  ¶ 10:13:00 pm

  went to see sarah today. up ad walking and talking and laughing again. glad to see that she's fine now. :)
went to the sick boy's house to visit him after that. he looked so much better. except he can't laugh. :) his sister's still as cute as ever. shaun and stacey came later and i don't remember laughing so much in my entire life. went to macs to eat and catch up with my beloved stacey. first time eating macs this year, if i remember correctly. haha. still working hard at starting my diet.
i love my sick boy. 2 more days!
i love stacey.
i would love shaun as much, but he called me fat fingers. too bad.
  ¶ 11:30:00 pm

  my keyboard's still screwed up. shite. using the onscreen one, which sucks.
went to TTS to visit my poor sick boy yesterday. so poor thing. got cut open. watching him move was SO painful. got home at 10. didn't study for the maths test today. DIE.
am going to go visit him tomorrow! yay!
3 more days to our second year together! :)
  ¶ 11:40:00 pm

  stacey. where art thou?!
couldn't sleep at all last night. thinking about what could have happened to her. ended up sleeping only 3.5 hrs, from 0800 to 1130. called joel just now, who thinks she should be alright.
you'd better be, you woman. i'm going to strangle you the next time i see you.
  ¶ 1:16:00 pm

  bloody f-ing keyboard.
why am i not sleeping at this god-forsaken hour? i can't. cos i have some things to tell you. stuff you have to know, need to know. a burden that will never go away until you do. things that will destroy us if you don't. it's hurting me and i know it's going to hurt you even more. i know you don't read this anymore. but just in case you still do, call me when you see this okay? i don't care what time of the day it is. because i need you now. more than ever.
  ¶ 3:06:00 am

  there's a mosquito buzzing about in my room now. and stacey su still hasn't contacted me yet. i called joel and he didn't pick up either. i'm getting worried.
by the way, jo and mira, sad to say, i think it's back. you know what i mean. :(
  ¶ 1:04:00 am

  stacey su where are you? waited and waited for you and i still don't know where on earth are you.
stupid boy is sick. i am not. hahaha. fish and co. is good, but they give too much potatoes! went there yesterday and ate like a pig. east coast is a very nice place at night. you can see alot of stars! but sadly, the only constellation i know is orion's belt. hahaha.
went to selina's house today. and i like her little doggie very much! so warm and cuddly. too bad my mum doesn't like dogs. :(
  ¶ 10:44:00 pm

  my mudder got the front door locked changed. harhar. not that i really care, other than the fact that my house may get burglarised anytime if she didn't.
i have finished my homework and i am very very very bored. and i am very(to the power of n), f-ing pissed.
fine, don't call me. let's see who will pick up the phone first. go out. i don't care. i've bloody had enough.
  ¶ 4:14:00 pm

  never thought i'd actually see this in bridget jones the edge of reason.

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is how to love and be loved in return."

fine, i know it's a song sung by nat king cole. but that's besides the point.
  ¶ 1:34:00 am

  i'm glad it's over.
forgiveness is impossible if it went on any further.
  ¶ 1:22:00 am

  shitty day.
my mum lost her keys today afternoon. left it stuck in the letterbox and only realised that she left it there when she wanted to open the door. rushed back down but someone already took it. poor mum. sat outside waiting for me for 3 hrs. i hope it's some good samaritan who took it to the police station or something, not bloody asswipes otherwise known as BURGLARS. but the odds are as good as going home to find dog poop in your cupboard when you don't even own a dog. so there. but come to think of it, i'm sort of the one who caused all this trouble. i wasn't planning to come home for dinner today, but Clarrisa and Joanna are busy people. so i called home last minute to let my mum know i was coming home for dinner, and she went down to get groceries. if i hadn't been ditched, my mum wouldn't have gone out and she wouldn't have lost the damn key. charged home soon as she called me from the neighbours'. we've got a new padlock now. but the lock in the maindoor and gate can't be changed. am living in mortal fear of being robbed. couldn't even take a shower in peace while mum was out getting dinner and new lock. had to keep my ears open, listening for the door opening in case it wasn't my mum. worst day of my life. haven't experienced anything that can beat this yet.
one positive thought: there's minimal homework this weekend. i can sleep the entire weekend away.
and poor jaric, stuck in commando camp. hoho.
  ¶ 10:04:00 pm

  hello stacey. good to see that you guys are friends again. :D
ran into broc at PS. she is M.A.D. pilates, yoga and aerobics are making her hyper. first thing she said to me was bitching about our favourite ex-history teacher. ah, those were the days gone by when we spent bitching about her in our j1 year. thank god what happened to her didn't happen to me. would have prefer getting tortured to death by aliens from pluto. yuck.
see you next saturday stacey su!!!
joanna tay! i still haven't seen the colour that i want yet!
  ¶ 8:58:00 pm

  went optician-hopping with Jo today. it's quite fun, i must say. but it's making me very tempted to go get new specs! am looking for dark green plastic ones. haven't seen any yet. but someone let me know if you've seen any! came home and hinted to my mother. hope she's getting it or i'll have to pay for them myself, which is not very ideal right now or at anytime. because I AM BROKE.
feeling super tired these days, not sure if it' s cos of the killer pe, or that i have to exercise EVERYDAY. damn it. i swear, i'm going to die of an overdose of exercise one of these days.
  ¶ 10:17:00 pm

  yuck. econs essay's making my day shittier than ever. and i still have to do it. why does that disgusting ear-hair farmer have to be my teacher?
  ¶ 2:58:00 pm

  get out of my head you idiot!!!
this is worse than i thought.
  ¶ 9:49:00 pm

  what's with the stupid emails with "penis enlargement" in the title box when i don't even HAVE one? on second thoughts, maybe some stupid faggot with the initials K.S. needs them. provided he even has one in the first place. stupid d*ck. school was going pretty well until he decided he HAD to get my entire class into trouble. now, t9 is living under scrutiny, no thanks to that stupid ass. i thought being bugly was bad enough, but nooo, somebody had to be a hated bugly faggot.
dumbass aside, i have homework on my very first weekend of 2005. :(

and i'm not worthy of what i have.
  ¶ 5:12:00 pm

  Somebody, kill me.
My life is not worth living.
There is NOTHING to do.
Crap. I'm going to bed.
So that I can die in my sleep.

  ¶ 2:16:00 am

  I can't take this anymore. I AM F*CKING, OUT-OF-MY-MIND SHITE BORED. Ah, first curse of the new year. Feels pretty good. Shall not pound on the keyboard too hard for fear of waking my mum. And THAT IDIOT BOY STILL HASN'T REPLIED ME YET. But, I will learn to be more forgiving towards him this year.
Found something to play with recently, but is no good unless you're playing with your friends. PICTIONARY!
Oh, and guess what I found? If ever you find yourself as bored as I am right now, try going to Yahoo, type in "cjc" and "blog" in the search box, you'll find yourself with access to many blogs of the people in CJ. Plus, you'll find that many people are actually AIMING to get into CJ. I have no idea why do people want to do that. Probably got a screw loose somewhere.
And I really NEED something to do!
Am I really going to have to spent my last night of freedom staring into space?
Shite.
  ¶ 1:35:00 am

  shite. shite. shite.
looked through everyone's blogs and realise how much of a bore i am.
i went for ONE long holiday and everyone's had some earth shattering change in their lives.
argh!!!
still no new year resolution.
well, maybe one.
to finally lose weight and look like devon aoki. from the back. and missing 3 centimetres. minus the hair, of course.
  ¶ 9:48:00 pm

  IT'S ALIVE!!!
this is pathetic man.
it's the 1st of january and i'm HOMEEEEEE!!!
anyways, just got a guy over to get my comp up and working after three thousand eight hundred and twenty seven years.
yay!
calls for a celebration!
and i watched Meet The Fockers yesterday.
got Fockerized. -snort snort-
or the day before to be exact.
after all, it's the 1st day of 2005 ALREADY!
which means...
SCHOOL IS STARTING IN 2 DAYS!
and i haven't finished my maths homework.
arghhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!
okay.
we're going nowhere, are we?
was just bored and i had to tell everyone my comp is ALIVEEEEE!!!!
yay!
yay!
yay!
gonna scoot now.
interview with the vampire is on!
bye bye!
  ¶ 2:07:00 am